Who is this God I serve?

This God I serve is alive and amazing and has far exceeded all expectations I have put on him! This weekend there was a definite exchange.  God took some garbage out and filled it with fire, seriously Holy Spirit fire.  I have never experienced anything like it and absolutely nothing better.  I feel like I should type more, but there just aren't words to describe.  People are feeling the love of God and getting healed.  What more can I say?  This is a God I will give my life for.  This awesome God.

The Solution

I know my many millions ;) of readers will be shocked by this, but the solution to my particular restlessness...drumroll please......time with God!  Woo hoo!  Once again he is so excellent.  In case you were unsure "unfailing love surrounds those that trust God." Woo hoo!

Restless...

That's what I am.  I rarely get restless over breaks and am so thankful to have the conference for the rest of the week to distract me.  Its not necessarily a restlessness because I don't have anything to do.  It more of a restlessness of my mind.  I keep thinking about this one subject.  On a normal day I have 20 some fourth graders vying for my attention and am far too distracted to fixate on it, but the last three days I have been doing less mental work and much more work with my hands, baking, sewing, creating art, which is usually a very good thing that slows my mind down.  Yet over the last three days even my conversations with God have always ended up in this place.  So I am restless, in desperate need of mind distraction.

Let not the longing slay your appetite for living.

Elizabeth or Jim Elliot said that, not really sure which one.  That is so much easier said than actually accomplished.  Believing  that something is going to happen, but feeling like you must just wait is hard.  I desperately want to push the issue and just make it happen.  After all that is typically how I approach life.  Get an idea, think briefly, do it.  And yet God says, "Wait and I will give it to you in a better way than you could ever accomplish on your own."  It will be magnificent.  Everything God has ever done for me has been.  Its just the waiting....grrrrrrr!

Re-Calibration

cal·i·brate

to plan or devise (something) carefully so as to have a precise use, application, appeal, etc.: a sales strategy calibrated to rich investors.

So I'm not sure that how I approach this word is exactly correct, but regardless it is the word that keeps popping in my hear over and over.  Whenever I go home I feel like I have to go through a re-calibrating when I return to Chicago.  Let me rephrase that.  It is more like I have to allow God to re-calibrate me because it actually has little to do with what I do.  When I return I have to hear all over from God that he has carefully planned and develop me for his highly specialized purpose.  Though this weekend had its rougher moments the great change was He was re-calibrating me as the weekend was happening.  It was almost as if becuase I didn't completely shut him out while I was shutting everything else out He was allowed to do a more permanent calibration.  See I talked him when I was there.  Usually I don't.  Usually I am so deep in survival mode I don't really talk to anyone including God.  The difference is I talk to God all throughout my day and that is a lot harder to shut off.  So I didn't and it helped.  

Can't Wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One school day until spring break. Woo hoo!!!

Computers, God, and iPod

Well I'm ridiculously excited to be blogging again.  Its been a couple of years and I've missed it.  So I have officially become one of those Apple people and I'm loving it.  I am so thankful that I have the means right now to save and make such a purchase, but I still feel like there is so much work that needs to be done on me in regards to money.  I just can't seem to get a balanced stance on the issue.  There has been either one extreme or the other.  So alas God has started to push on those buttons in me and we will see what happens.  Speaking of God, I was made aware today of another reason God is so amazing.  He never changes his opinion about you.  So no matter what is going on in regards to your human relationships every single time we go to God he says the same thing.  I love you.  I'm crazy about you.  I can't get enough of you.  You are mine.  That never ever changes and that changes your whole life.  EVERYTHING.